Edition Two
GREED: The NeoConning of Melinda
GREED: The NeoConning of Melinda
Chapter One
The Weasel Search Tape
Morgan, like other psychopathic
individuals, lives on lies. Her husband, Jay E. Gell, uses threats
of law suits for the purposes of intimidation, a form of extortion.
He believes law is a weapon he can use to intimidate. He believes
using the forms for justice protect him from having the real nature
of his actions becoming obvious.
This is both a conversion of our courts
and law and a perversion of their use.
Finally, after many years of being
abused by a child to whom I gave birth, I realized her nature. After
discussion with professionals, and with close family members, I
published some small part of the truth about her. While there are no
documents for the earlier part of her life, other family members were
consulted and agreed with my assessment.
In her later life these is
documentation of her behavior, much of it very public, having
happened around the original publishing of Sex,
Lies, and the Tape, the article about John Fund and his
covert behavior published, after interference by Fund, on Weasel
Search, a site which is now defunct. The tape is has been hosted on
American Politics Journal since around 2002.
I linked to the Weasel Search tape
twice in the previous article because hearing a psychopath manipulate
her intended victim is very instructive. I found it so, after I overcame my
unwillingness to see Morgan for what she is.
The Weasel Search Tape was made in
September, 1999.
Some background here: Morgan's
relationship with John began during an Objectivist Conference in NYC
during the late summer 1998. They woke up in bed together. My
estranged husband, who had taken Morgan to the conference, called
Morgan's room.
If you are emotionally normal you
might wonder why Morgan was traveling around with my estranged
husband. The trip did not end in New York. From there the couple
went on to London and Paris. I also thought it was strange, so
strange I did not believe it when the rumor got back to me. I later
discovered it was true.
John reached over and answered the
phone. From that point the relationship was not secret although
according to Morgan John pressured her to keep it quiet for "a
while."
Morgan and I were estranged at that
time. I first heard about the affair from another daughter and
subsequently called John directly to ask if it was true. This was in
early spring of 1999. The conversation was short and amicable. He
denied it. When Morgan and I started talking again in September of
1999 I insisted she tell the truth but, since John had lied to me,
did not believe her story.
Hence, the tape made to prove to her
mother that she was telling the truth on this occasion. The
conversation between myself and Morgan was taking place when John
called her. I was put on hold. The beeping in the transcript is me,
trying to call back to continue our argument.
The poetry referred to is the share
list I had at the time. It included both jokes and poetry. The share
list went to around 15 people. I don't know which poems John might
have received since I took him off the list when I discovered I was
sending to him. I did not expect responses to these mailings. John
was deluding himself. I do not know why John thought I was thinking
of him at all. A guilty conscience, perhaps?
It is bizarre to hear yourself
discussed in this way. I think most people would share the feeling.
My comments, providing additional information or context, will
appear in BLUE.
FLORIDA, USA, September 04 2001
(weaselsearch.com) By John Connolly
Morgan had
attended a David Horowitz event in Colorado earlier in the summer,
1999. Craig paid her way. Morgan expected to spend time with John,
according to what she told me. Evidently, sometime after I talked to
him that spring he was inadvertently included on my Friends list to
receive poetry and jokes.
JOHN FUND: You shouldn't have told her,
and you kept telling her, and telling her, and telling her and you
kept digging yourself in deeper and Morgan the one thing I can't
understand is you obviously told her within days of Colorado where we
were discussing a dinner. And I got glimmerings, I didn't open all of
my e-mails but I got glimmerings of that pretty quickly, little
clues, her e-mails were changing tones. You told her within days, you
didn't wait very long and the irony is if you thought I was punishing
you, it might not have been punishment forever but what did you chose
to do you chose
to lash back at me and you chose to go
...
MORGAN: (AT A HIGH PITCHED VOICE ALMOST
ANGRY) You're not lashed back at!!!
I mean all I have to do is tell her to
shut up and she'll shut up.
It is an
interesting assumption for a daughter to say she has this degree of
control. But she was judging from past experience. I was always very
easy for her to manipulate.
JOHN FUND: Morgan ...(SHORT PAUSE)
Within days of Colorado you told her.
MORGAN: Yeah, I was pretty hurt by your
behavior there.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Well coming from someone who
asks what they can do to make it up to me that's seems to be a little
incongruous. Making it up to me did not include going out and lashing
out and telling her...
MORGAN: Lashing out at you is not
telling my mother, is not lying to my mother when she confronts me
on something.
JOHN FUND: She was bluffing.
MORGAN: She was not bluffing. She had
it from Craig. (THERE IS A PAUSE) I knew she had it from Craig.
This is absurd.
I was not speaking to Craig. The source of any information on Morgan
was my youngest daughter, Ayn. At this point Ayn was no longer
talking to Morgan, either.
JOHN FUND: She had a one-night stand
from Craig, she had nothing else.
MORGAN: WHAT!!!!
JOHN FUND: You told Craig.
MORGAN: What do you mean, I mean.
MORGAN: That Craig would confirm that I
had a relationship with you. Is that odd? (SHORT PAUSE) I'm not the
one who picked up the phone in the hotel
room John, that was you.
JOHN FUND: I accept responsibility for
that. (SHORT PAUSE) Look Morgan you've done your damage and (PAUSE)
and go ahead and do what you want to me. I've got a long list of
things to anticipate and I am fully expecting that some of it may
happen but I think it is very short sighted and very spiteful of you
if you do it.
MORGAN: Look, I just told you I wasn't
going to do anything. How many times do I have to..
JOHN FUND: You also told me you would
never tell on .. (THERE'S A BEEP IN TAPE) and you managed to.
MORGAN: (SHE SIGHS) Yeah after you
treated me really badly, John.
They are about to
spin an astonishing conspiracy theory. They are talking about the
mini-honeymoon they took to New Orleans. I heard, after the fact,
about the trip from Ayn, who reported it, having been told by Morgan.
However, neither Ayn or myself believed it was true. At the time I
was entirely caught up caring for my son, Arthur, who had suffered
two major brain injuries and also with my own health issues. The
solution was simple. Morgan told Ayn. Ayn called me. Morgan wanted
to brag, I suppose. I did not mention the trip to John and I did
not know the room number then or now.
JOHN FUND: No.
You come up with an explanation of New Orleans and how that
came out. You come up with an explanation of New Orleans that is
credible
MORGAN: Are you seriously telling me
that she knew the hotel room?
JOHN FUND: Come up with an explanation
from New Orleans. Come up with one.
You can't.
(THERE IS A SHORT PAUSE)
MORGAN: Yeah, I probably could.
JOHN FUND: No you can't. Not one that
is credible (THERE IS A PAUSE) You can't.. So we are back to square
one.
MORGAN: No, No we are not because now I
know that you basically were just using me Because you just told me
there was obviously there was no way the relationship could come out
so it was obviously it was going to be a quiet relationship (PAUSE)
and you would deny me completely.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: You think I was .. You think
I wanted. You think I wanted your mother to know?
MORGAN: (SIGHED)
(THERE IS SHORT PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Morgan, what are we talking
about, we had this conversation in New York City. (THERE IS ANOTHER
PAUSE) What are you talking about?
MORGAN: What that, that, I mean for
honestly what you are telling me here..
JOHN FUND: Morgan, did the relationship
change after February/March, the answer is yes. It changed for two
reasons. One that it was extremely unset about what had happened, our
joint responsibility and and was extremely upset because it became
clear to me that things were known to her. (LONG PAUSE) I thought I
could deal with it and I didn't and if you want to call that being
using you no, the answer is no.
It sounds like
John felt guilty. Hard to believe. What a soap opera.
MORGAN: But John you didn't...
JOHN FUND: I took, I took you to a
play, I took you to a movie, I tried, I tried get, I tried to make
things better and it didn't get any better. I was still seething. So
finally I decided to tell you why I was angry with you. If you want
to believe I was using you go ahead and believe it. I don't think so
and I don't know so. (THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) If you choose to believe
that, that is your business.
MORGAN: John, if the relationship could
never come out what is the point of it. (THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) I
have never in my life been treated like a dirty secret.
JOHN FUND: You know the reason. We had
this discussion at the beginning, if you don't remember the
discussion we had at the beginning then were dealing with two
separate stages of reality.
MORGAN: I know you told me you wanted
to keep it quiet and I thought that was for a while, I didn't know
that was permanently.
JOHN FUND: Well guess what?
MORGAN: It was permanent?
JOHN FUND: No! No! By February or March
I already knew that it hadn't been kept quiet.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
MORGAN: How?
JOHN FUND: That one e-mail I will be
willing to share with you. That one e-mail I will be willing to share
with you.
MORGAN: Then what does it say?
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: It has enough of the details
that I knew that someone had talked.
MORGAN: Was it from her?
JOHN FUND: No, it was from the man on
the moon.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
MORGAN: Very funny. (THERE IS A PAUSE)
That's impossible.
Morgan fails to
mention she told Ayn.
JOHN FUND: Well it happened. (THERE IS
A LONG PAUSE)
MORGAN: Alright. I want you to show it
to me.
JOHN FUND: Fine, But things changed
after that. Do you understand why?
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) Do you
understand why?
MORGAN: I can understand why and I
really wished you had discussed it with me.
JOHN FUND: I should've and I told you
that in Colorado.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
MORGAN: So when do you want to show it
to me.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Well I just that depends on
whether or not I get threatened again
immediately which Robert should put me
into a defensive crouch. If I don't get threatened immediately I
won't try to do it sooner rather than later. If I get threatened..
I did not
threaten him. Since I thought she was lying I was actually
embarrassed even to call and ask. I could not believe he would be so
stupid.
MORGAN: Why would you think she is
threatening you? This is what I don't get.
JOHN FUND: She is threatening me.
MORGAN: What did she say?
JOHN FUND: She is threatening me!
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
MORGAN: Well obviously you are worried
about her threats.
JOHN FUND: No, I am not worried about
her because no one have ever done that successfully.
MORGAN: What?
JOHN FUND: Threaten me.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
MORGAN: What! This has come up before?
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: I have spent the last six
years being threaten by the Clinton administration.
The Clinton
Administration had real reasons to be very unhappy with John. By his
own report he was involved, or helped plan, most of the dirty tricks
carried out by the NeoCons during the Clinton's time in office. But
at least that was political.
MORGAN: Sighs.
JOHN FUND: I know all about threats.
They've come after me, they've audited my taxes, they've tried to
besmirch my reputation, they've have tried to attack my character.
What? They
reported your activities accurately?
MORGAN: Why did they do that?
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Guess.
MORGAN: Well, it's not over that Sid
Vicious stuff, is it?
It is amazing
John can characterize Blumenthal as 'Sid Vicious,' when he and Drudge
carried out a plan to see his reputation tarnished as a wife beater.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Look Morgan, (THERE IS A
LONG PAUSE) Am I worried about threats? No. Am I upset that I am
threatened? Yes. I'm always threatened, I've been threatened for the
last six years from these turkeys in the Clinton administration. I
can deal with other people who want to threaten.
Where is my
violin?
MORGAN: Well then...
JOHN FUND: But that doesn't make me
happy.
MORGAN: Well let me ask you something.
If you're worried about these threats and you're worried about
things happening.
JOHN FUND: There is a difference
between being worried and being upset.
MORGAN: Okay. If you're upset about
these threats and you certainly don't want to be threaten anymore
which I take it is the case. Why in the world did you set yourself up
for something like this? If I was just to be this dirty secret. I
mean . Please.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: I didn't think you would go
to this level. I really didn't expect that of you. (THERE IS A LONG
PAUSE) And with the days of Colorado you didn't wait very long, you
waited, you waited barely three or four days, barely three or four
days.
MORGAN: Who am I suppose to talk to
about how I feel? I can't talk to you.
JOHN FUND: Well guess what. From all of
your previous conversations I sure didn't expect it to be your
mother. From all of which you said about her. I sure didn't expect it
to be her.
MORGAN: You really didn't think that I
would start talking to my mother again.
JOHN FUND: About this.
MORGAN: Sighs. (PAUSE) You didn't
JOHN FUND: About this.
MORGAN: No. About anything. I mean
people have fallings out with their parents all the time.
JOHN FUND: What you described was not a
falling out...
I wrote John a
letter recently asking what Morgan could have said. It had to have
been a real doozie of a lie. Probably several. Note. If she told
you stories about me please send them along in your affidavit.
MORGAN: My mother discussed you with me
and not just with me with everybody in my family. With Janice Vargo.
(THERE IS A PAUSE) That's a blast from the past isn't it.
Janice knew I was
seeing John in 1981 – 1983. She babysat for my kids and saw us
together at Libertarian events. Disgusting to think about now.
JOHN FUND: Look Morgan (THERE IS A
PAUSE) I now have a better sense of why you were upset with me and
why you were angry with me. Some of it I accept and some of it I
don't. And ..
MORGAN: No you don't accept it you
just, you just think that that nothing can happen.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: What does that mean?
MORGAN: It's just that I'm a good
little girl and I'll just go away
Note: Morgan is
many things. A good little girl was never one of them.
JOHN FUND: No! You're .. If you want,
if you want, if you want to get mad at me and you want to threaten me
and you want to go off and do stuff to me more than you have already
done you are allowed to do that.
MORGAN: More than I've already done! I
haven't done anything!
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: You've got a woman
threatening me.
I didn't even
believe Morgan at this point. Now, when I realized she had told the
truth, about five minutes after this conversation ended, then I was
threatening. A mother always forgets the past to protect her child.
MORGAN: It's my mother!
JOHN FUND: And I'm not supposed to take
that seriously.
MORGAN: No!
JOHN FUND: I'm not suppose to take it
seriously.
MORGAN: Look. You know what my mother
wanted. (THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) She just wanted the truth from you.
She didn't care.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: I'm getting a series of
threats from her. She does not want the truth.
Oh yes I did. I
would have urged you to marry her as I was worried about her starving
if she didn't marry someone. Of course, then I had not met Jaye E.
Gell. I might have urged her to become Catholic and become a nun.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
MORGAN: Sighs. What do you thinks she
wants?
JOHN FUND: Well I should've opened her
e-mails earlier that probably why she is escalating.
MORGAN: Yeah.
JOHN FUND: I should've opened them
earlier.
MORGAN: She, she was when I talked to
her first she was extremely upset with me. (THERE IS A PAUSE) And she
wanted to know what happened.
JOHN FUND: Well Morgan look. (THERE IS
A LONG PAUSE) I thought my friendship was worth something you
obviously chose it for it to be worth very little to you because
you've now got a woman threatening me.
MORGAN: No, it meant a lot to me.
JOHN FUND: Well guess what you sure
haven't showed it.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
MORGAN: And not and and not discussing
it with me letting me be alone consistently and not helping me out is
a real good show of friendship John.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Morgan we've already gone
over (THERE IS A PAUSE) our disagreement over what happened when you
went through your emotional trauma. We've already gone over it..
MORGAN: When I went through it. Do you
think I'm not still in it? Do you know what I am dealing with, John?
Do you have any idea what I have gone through?
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: You have told me.
MORGAN: No, I don't think I have!
(PAUSE) AT THE SPECIFIC REQUEST OF MORGAN
A SENTENCE HAS BEEN DELETED BOTH HERE
AND ON THE TAPE. That I have serious problems. But nothing that I
can't overcome and I that I am determined to …
Morgan is still
determined to marry Fund. Then she will have access to money and
power, the goals of any good psychopath.
JOHN FUND: You have decided, you have
decided to make it worse by annihilating someone who did like you.
MORGAN: You never cared about me, if
you had you would've have maybe..what.
JOHN FUND: You choose to believe that
go ahead
MORGAN: I don't want to believe it. I
tried to..
JOHN FUND: ------believe it, that's
what you choose to believe.<
MORGAN: No that's not what I choose to
believe I just looked at the facts.
JOHN FUND: Did the relationship change
in February and March?
MORGAN: Sighs. Yeah, I was pregnant!
JOHN FUND: No, did change, did it
change, did it change after that?
MORGAN: Oh, it did change after that.
Yeah.
JOHN FUND: Well guess what you now know
the god damn reason. (THERE IS A PAUSE) and it wasn't your pregnancy.
It was, it was, it was you somehow indirectly or directly managed to
violate a confidence. (THERE IS A PAUSE) It was direct specific
nature. (THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) You somehow directly or indirectly
caused that to happen. Cause it didn't come from me.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
MORGAN: Alright the only thing I can
think of when I was searching my brain,racking my brain as to how she
could have gotten the hotel room. The number and stuff? Is that I
left notes when I was Uh writing things down. I only way I think she
could have gotten is if I'm which she did have a key to my house.
.came in and looked through my stuff.
This is fantasy
land. I did not even know where she was living exactly and my vision
was too bad to drive them.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Well that was a mistake.
MORGAN: It was a mistake to write down
where I am supposed to go.
I wonder what
John thought I would do? I have always wondered.
JOHN FUND: Yes. (THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
Everything changed after that.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) Look your
experience hurt me not as much you but it hurt me too. It hurt me
deeply. And I was upset.
MORGAN: How come you didn't express it
to me?
JOHN FUND: Because I did and you're not
remembering it!
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
M,ORGAN: You told me you were upset.
You didn't say...
JOHN FUND: Sighs.Morgan I can't have
this conversation anymore. I know
(LOUD BEEP IN TAPE)..If you chose not
to full remember it. (PAUSE) I told you how upset it made me, I told
you why it made me upset.
MORGAN; Why did it make upset? Cause
I'm not remembering it? You want tell me know.
JOHN FUND: Jesus Christ! (PAUSE) Sighs.
I can't have a conversation with you. You choose to believe what you
want to believe, you choose to remember what you want to remember. I
cannot have a conversation with you.
(PAUSE)
MORGAN: Fine will have a conversation
later.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: I told you, I told you about
my responsibility, I told you about how much life meant to me. I told
you all of that. You don't remember any of it.
Even I was not
naïve enough to believe this. I'm pro-life. John certainly wasn't
when I knew him. Oh. That's right. He was getting a check for
staying 'pure' from the 700 Club. Silly me.
(PAUSE)
MORGAN: I remember a bit of it. Yes.
JOHN FUND: Then now you remember it,
when you didn't remember it 5 minutes ago.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
MORGAN: Well I didn't think that you
cared about the situation. I mean I know that you cared about what
was going on but I didn't see (INTERRPUTION IN TAPE) any
alternative.
JOHN FUND: You never gave me one.
MORGAN: I ...if you had called me back
when I told you I was gonna have an abortion and you said think this
over we have an alternative then things would have been different
John but as far ...when I left that message on your voice mail you
called me back and said is there anything I can do. Can I pay for it?
(PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Jesus Christ.
MORGAN: You never once before I got
that abortion suggested to me that there was any alternative.
JOHN FUND: I believe you'd already made
your decision.
John should have
been an attorney.
MORGAN: I didn't know what to do. I was
hysterical.
JOHN FUND: You told me you already made
your decision.
MORGAN: I never,..I said that I had
made the decision to have an abortion if you had said there are
alternatives. I would have listened to you. But as far as I knew you
were just saying to me well that just fine. That's what I want. If
you had said no Morgan I have a real problem with it. Let's discuss
alternatives then things would have been different but what am I
suppose to do. I told you the situation. (PAUSE) I was moving to a
place I didn't know all alone. I'm suppose to have a baby.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Sighs. Look (THERE IS A LONG
PAUSE) You choose to believe the worst in me and you choose to
believe and you've got this very elaborate system where mother has
shared some of my e-mails with me including some of the things in
which I tried to deny something because I did not know at the time I
was denying something she already knew. And if you choose to take
Umbridge at that, that cover story and the other things that I came
up with to try to protect myself and protect you I thought indirectly
that's fine. I understand why you are upset and why you are mad. I
know what I said, I know what the truth was and I know what lies I
told and I know what I did. And I also know what I talked to you
about and I also know what you choose not to remember now and
obviously were are not going to have any resolution of this. You're
mad at me and I'm mad at you.
This part is
fascinating. John needs to know what you know so he knows how to
invent what he is going to tell you to get out of hot water.
MORGAN: Oh, now you're mad at me I
thought you were disappointed. (THERE IS A PAUSE) We've moved up.
JOHN FUND: We've just moved up because
of this ridiculous conversation that you have and in which it took
me, it took me, it took me ..the ability to finally get mad for you
to confess that I wasn't completely uncaring and unfeeling about it.
It took you a long time to come up with them I had to get mad at you
to get...
MORGAN: How come you didn't tell me at
the time that you didn't want me to have an abortion?
JOHN FUND: I didn't say I didn't want
you to. I said I was willing to discuss it with you. You told me what
your decision was. And you were crying and all of that. The last
thing I was going to try to do was to talk to you about it.
Told you. An
attorney AND a politician. And he says he is pro-life.
MORGAN: Well you know ...I was crying
in February. You could have called me back before I had the abortion.
Actually I was crying in March. You could have called me back and we
could have discussed it but you never wanted to sit down and discuss
it. I thought if you're so right to life and all this good stuff
which you did tell me you were..
Morgan didn't
usually have to cry. Getting mean worked better with her family.
JOHN FUND: No, no, no.Morgan, Morgan
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) We agreed earlier that we should have had a
conversation. I never told you I was a strict right to lifer. I have
respect for life and I also make judgment calls and I also have
variations on that theme.
So much for being
Pro-life.
MORGAN: No, I'm sorry I misspoke. You
did not tell me you were a right to lifer. Okay. You told me that you
didn't..you had respect for life. I remember that part of the
conversation. We had a discussion about it. But never once in that
discussion did you offer me an alternative. Did you say you know you
don't have to do this Morgan? You never said that. Do you agree?
JOHN FUND: I never said that. (THERE IS
A PAUSE) you also told me what your decision was unilaterally.
MORGAN: No, I told you I decided to
have an abortion cause I could not …
JOHN FUND: ...which your
decision...decision (both talking at once)
MORGAN: And you know what it was
partially your decision too because this was your kid. If you felt
that and you know ...if you took responsibility for it you could have
said think about, lets think about it. Why didn't you say that?
(PAUSE) Why didn't you offer me an alternative? Do I have to do all
the talking? (THERE IS A LONG PAUSE) You're taking someone who is
emotionally distraught over this whole thing.
JOHN FUND: I was too.
MORGAN: Her very first abortion.
JOHN FUND: I was too.
MORGAN: And not suggest something to me
I mean I didn't know what to do, John.
JOHN FUND: You told me you already
decided what you were going to do.
MORGAN: Well I offer that as a
suggestion because I knew..
JOHN FUND: Morgan, don't give me this
crap you told me what you were going to do.
MORGAN: I know, I called back and told
you I've decided to have an abortion and I've scheduled it. But did
you call me back and say you don't have to do this. No. It's
something we should've discussed because we're both involved.
JOHN FUND: Sighs.
MORGAN: And you think I needed
emotional help when I got back here and I found Orcero(TK)...Do you
know that some of the baby came out.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: I've had an, I've had an
awful lot of details sent to me.
MORGAN: On what the abortion now. Are
you serious. This must be something you just got. (THERE IS A LONG
PAUSE) Oh what ___ sent you detailing the whole thing. Is that what
happened now.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: I am aware of what you went
through. (THERE IS A VERY LONG PAUSE) You had a decision to make
after Colorado Springs, Morgan you could've either gotten mad and
gotten even or you could've decided that maybe with time there
could've been something that would've been supportive and perhaps we
could've worked this out. And you chose to take the first course and
not the later course. And that was your decision.
MORGAN: No John you were making the
rules at that point. I had no …
JOHN FUND: No, no.
MORGAN: I felt like I had no
alternative but you just give into whatever you thought was best.
JOHN FUND: No, we had a friendship that
we could've rebuilt. (PAUSE) and you chose to lash out and get back
at me. Congratulations you succeeded. I hope it makes you feel good
and I hope it gets you lots of benefits.
MORGAN: What benefits? I'm not asking
for any benefits.
JOHN FUND: I hope that it gets you lots
of benefits.
MORGAN: I do not know what you are
saying. Because I never asked you for anything. And I certainly have
no intention of of blowing you apart. Why would I want to do that to
somebody I cared about. Huh.
JOHN FUND: Morgan, Look. (PAUSE) I
cared about and I got angry because the one thing that I asked you
for I didn't get. Which was confidence. And I didn't.
MORGAN: And it was never going to end.
(PAUSE) Because you and I both believe that Melinda would have a
freakfest if she found out.
They both much
overestimated by concern with their personal lives. I mostly had
hoped she would get a job but if John had married her it would have
been a load off my mind.
JOHN FUND: (THERE IS A PAUSE) Morgan
you chose to lash out at me and get even and you succeeded and I am
now dealing with someone who is threatening me and who is saying you
are threatening me.
MORGAN: Do you want me to call her off?
Sure Morgan, just
try that now. Notice how she assumes she can get me to do anything
she wants. How sadly true it was.
JOHN FUND: Morgan, you do whatever you
think is best because you've always done that.
MORGAN: Sighs.
JOHN FUND: I obviously don't have
sufficient credibility to ask you anything because you were clearly
mad at me, and clearly wanted to get back at me.
MORGAN; No, I am not mad at you John.
JOHN FUND: You got back at me.
Wow. If John had
only known what was coming. He would have married her.
MORGAN: I am more..John you want to
know what I am at you. I'm not mad at you. I was never mad you. I was
hurt by you, but (PAUSE) I was never mad at you. I just wanted to
talk. And..
JOHN FUND: I wish, I wish that I'd been
able to give you more symphaty and more emotional support after the
event. But I had a very rude surprise shortly thereafter. And that
colored most of my thinking.
MORGAN: Sighs. You know..
JOHN FUND: And we should have talked
about..
MORGAN: You know what I feel like, I
feel like I am fighting an unknown enemy because you did this to me
before. You tell me you get e-mails your not very specific so I don't
know what charges I being dealt you know. It's like if somebody
called you up and said oh but you are being charged with something in
court and they wouldn't tell you what it is. And you have no..
JOHN FUND: All I can say is this. I
know what you said about your mother her credibility and her
truthfulness. And you have chosen now to accept her credibility and
truthfulness so go live with it. Because in choosing her you are not
choosing me and my credibility and my truthfulness. You have made up
your mind and you have made your decision so you have to go live with
it.
My credibility?
My truthfulness? Outrageous. This, from the psychopath.
MORGAN: I have not made a decision.
JOHN FUND: You already have.
MORGAN: By doing what. By talking to
her in the first place. (THERE IS A PAUSE) I'm glad you're so amused.
JOHN FUND: If I weren't amused I would
be angry. I am being threatened and I'm ..a very specific list of
what you are going to do to me sent to me.
MORGAN: Would you like to tell me
what's on the list that I am supposedly threatening you with. I would
love to know.
JOHN FUND: No, because if you are
actually threatening me that's not exactly going to help me is it.?
You have put me in a very defensive position by sharing this with
your mother and by incurring her wrath upon me, you have put me in a
very defensive position. Now I have tried maybe perhaps with
insufficient rigor or ability to try to stand in your shoes and
understand how much emotional trauma you are going through. Would you
understand what I am going through …
I have not the
foggiest what he is talking about. And Morgan knew NOTHING about
trauma, except for delivering it.
MORGAN: Yes, I can understand that. I
know that you feel betrayed.
(THERE IS A PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Yes I do.
MORGAN: And I want you to know that I
never meant to betray you.
JOHN FUND: Well.
MORGAN: I felt like I had no
alternative, John.
JOHN FUND: Well find, but you managed
to get your revenge because I am being threatened.
MORGAN: Why do you think its revenge
because she's talking to you. She's an old friend of yours.
JOHN FUND: She's not talking to me,
she's threatening me.
The poetry was
actually rather nice. I wonder what he is talking about.
MORGAN: John you are really, I mean all
you would have to do is call her up and talk to her about it and it
would be all over.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: I don't deal with people who
threaten me. Period end of conversation. I should've opened her
e-mails earlier I didn't. I get hundred of e-mails.
This is because
he is soooo important.
MORGAN: Well, I know you do.
JOHN FUND: I get hundred of e-mails.
Most of them are poems from her. I admit I open most of her poems but
not all of them....
MORGAN: She sends you those too.
JOHN FUND: She sends me tons of poems.
Neither of them
ever received another poem from me. It was actually embarrassing to
know John had been receiving them. I had never sent them to Morgan
because Morgan hates poetry and made a point of telling me so.
MORGAN: Yeah, I know.
JOHN FUND: Well guess what a couple of
them were not poems, they were e-mails from her. And I didn't open
them and I didn't read them..
MORGAN: Because you thought they were
poems.
JOHN FUND: I thought they were poems. I
thought I could get to them eventually. (THERE IS A PAUSE) So now she
has escalated.
MORGAN: You know John she's not
escalating, she is looking out for her daughter. Have you ever
thought of that. Have you ever thought of how she must feel?
Actually, looking
out for Morgan started after hearing this conversation. I should have
listened to it again. Everything would have been so different.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Morgan,
MORGAN: HMMMM.
(THERE IS A LONG PAUSE)
JOHN FUND: Regardless of what you did
or didn't tell anyone you made a mistake because a few days after
Colorado you decided to open this whole can of worms. And I
understand why you did it and I understand how angry you must have
been at me but it only made, but it only making matters worse.
Because I don't bear grudges forever but when I am threatened it
makes matters a whole lot worse. Because I don't respond well to
threats. (PAUSE) I just don't.
Morgan called me
a few times. We talked. I now realize she was manipulating me,
setting me up. After making me feel like she was sorry for the way
she had treated me she told me about John. Her rendition was
heart-wrenching. I told her she was lying. This tape was made.
Then John refused to take my call and blocked my email. Five minutes
later I had sent a fax to the central number for the WSJ. It was
copied, I am told, 20 times before it hit John's desk.
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